FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

The proceeding rant is to not be twisted - Though I am emotionally exhausted from this year... I'm still grateful and I still feel blessed with family and friends, I have a roof over my head, I have food on my plate and I go to sleep in my own bed with a sprinkle of Disneyland trips and mini adventures BUT DAMN IT this year has been extra...( as the kids say) I am literally fucking done with this year! The only real positive memorable event is my little brother's wedding - other than that 2016 can roll over, eat shit and die for all I care! There were many lessons learned and they were fucking hard and fucking emotionally, fucking mentally and fucking physically draining!!! Yes! That many f-bombs are fucking necessary! Because it has been that fucking draining. Okay-okay... I apologize but I needed to get those outta me... I'm writing to you from my sanctuary (our bedroom), I am finally-ish getting over this cold and can finish editing my thoughts from the ...

A long time ago, my career-life was managing after school programs and I have sooooo many great memories from that time. (I crave it so bad!) I recently began day dreaming of those days because of a trivial regret I had... On our last trip to Disneyland I wore a shirt dress without a jacket, without a cardigan, without, what I refer to as, "my protective layer." I didn't care that you could see my love handles, or that you could see a hint of my muffin top, or that stomach bulged out a bit or that my dimpled knees could be seen... I REALLY DID NOT CARE! We would pass a glass window and I would instead admire the curves of my fat ass, the curves created by my breastesses, the striped shirt that complimented my awesome white shoes - that I've managed to keep white for over 8 years!  LIKE! Look at you mujer! Smiling and working hard everyday to love and appreciate life! I was so damn ready to pat myself on the back as we sat down to have our Sund...

Pointer-outters, bye! To understand... read on... This summer I did something pretty radical! Well, radical for me... I was 12 years-old going on to 13 years-old when an adult decided to point out my cellulite and the bulgy parts above my knees. I was beginning to enter the stages of pre-puberty hormones and changes, my hips got a bit wider, my thighs a bit thicker and hair began to grow in strange places! I remember being excited to wear shorts that summer because my mom finally allowed me to start shaving my legs. Yes, I had to ask for permission to shave my legs. But the thrill of finally getting to flaunt my hairless legs dissipated the minute someone pointed out my bulgyness and dimpled flesh. This moment wasn't necessarily the end to my shorts-wearing days but it was the beginning of the end. I started to desperately look for special creams, I would do squats every morning but the cellulite would not disappear. The shorts only got longer and then just no...

Photograph by HusVinh   I have written about loving Sundays with my hubby because we get to brunch and I get to wear flowy dresses and this is oh so true - again - two weeks ago ;-) I know it took me a while to post - I have been UBER busy! I need an actual vacation, soon! Anywho--- I'd been craving a Sunday brunch in the city and I'd also been dying to surprise my hubby with a place featured @bayarea_buzz - the coolest ever - well... for a Star Wars fan... The Yoda Fountain! Needless to say the hubby loved it! Found my fountain, you have... This Sunday outing we were also able to bring the trio #LitaPtachNano and the kids enjoyed a day walking around the Presidio.  And because every once in a while the stars align for me - the restaurant I wanted to go to was only a 5 minute walk away from the Yoda Fountain - so it was like THREE birds and one stone! Brunch at the Presidio Social Club ! Time with our trio! And the Yoda Fountain !  Brun...

The face I made when my hubby said, "We're going on Vacation... to Vegas" About two weekends ago I was in Vegas baby! *Yeah - no...* Sorry, I'm pretty sure my sarcasm is seeping through your computer/phone screen. I am also pretty sure that everyone knows my sarcasm stems from not being a Vegasy type of woman; Vegas is to me as church is to an atheist. What's the point in going when you just don't believe in it... Vegas is the furthest place from being modest - it's the city of debauchery, excess and grandeur. So imagine my lack of enthusiasm when I found out that this modest fat woman would be going to a wedding in Vegas and the eye-roll of eye-rolls, heard around the world (or at least in the Perez-Ngo's Little Humble-Abode) when I found out that I'd have to go to EDC. (Technically speaking, I didn't "have to go" but my hubby is very inclusive and he wanted us to attend EDC together - and he knows that I may be more ...

Sleeping Beauty and Maleficent Give it to me to go to Vegas and come back more of an empowered feminist than ever! Damn right! First of all... (clap, clap) Let's get something straight! (clap-clap)) My anxiety/insecurity prior to this Vegas Wedding slash EDC thing had NOTHING to do with my body!!! (CLAP) I struggle with finding nudity an empowering source! And not because I'm fat but because I've always been a believer in less is more - in where, the less skin I show, the more enticing and the more empowered I feel. Yeah! Ladies and gents! It's possible! And an argument can be made of the same saying; Less is more - The less clothing you wear the more enticing and empowered you can feel! And I say "I struggle" with 'empowering nudity' because we are bombarded with nudity everywhere we look - We are meant to be made to believe that we should all be comfortable with nudity - well I hate to break it to y'all but - nah! I've written ...

We just got back from The Happiest Place on Earth! My home! Disneyland! I am writing this post from the comfort of the passenger side, with the beat scenery a girl can ask for... The ocean and my husband driving us home after a #MiniBAEcation to one of our favorite places. I live for the fifth Sunday of the month since I don't have to work and I get to enjoy a full weekend with my husband. And more so I get to enjoy a full Sunday with errands, sightseeing, champs and playing dress up! I said it in my previous post - I was really looking forward to our next mini BAEcation because of the clothes! (Well that- and the new Frozen show that premiered this weekend... If you LOVE Frozen, you'll appreciate this show, if you do not - save your time and money and just watch the DVD version) Besides the show, I was really looking forward to wearing a skirt I purchased, online, from Forever 21+. I just didn't have a T-shirt! Agh! The horror! I know! But th...

Purse: Aldo, Shoes: Keds, Dress; Target It took me a bit longer than expected to post this outfit but hey my middle name isn't procrastinator but it should be! This Fatshion post is about my one shopping weakness! Otherwise known as Dress-tination Syndrome! Continue reading for more information. I wore this outfit to Carmel for our wedding anniversary. For our actual Wedding Date Anniversary, the day before, I had worn an off the shoulder blouse in recognition of my wedding dress' bolero! (Another blog coming soon - regarding strapless bras;-) But I was most excited for this white eyelet dress from the WhoWhatWear collection. Btdubs, the collection is still being sold at Target ! Their Target collection is one that I have been uber excited to buy and wear this spring and summer and all at an affordable price!;-) Last year's weather during our wedding was just super legit so I thought a perfect white-crisp dress would be just as legit this year! But it wa...

Here it is, my take on our first year of marriage brought to you by my husband's "Vinh-isms" There are days that I would like to ring his neck Homer Simpson style and then there are days that I find myself singing because I'm thinking about how much I love my husband. We decided to write add a new set of vows each wedding/matrimony anniversary and hearing him say what he said touched my heart and tickled my soul in ways that are new and exciting!!! Our re-newed vows made us reflect on the question that we've gotten asked most often through out our first year of marriage: "So what has changed in your first year of marriage?" And at first, we were both a bit bothered by the question because we had been together for 8 years by the time we got married - so technically and practically speaking, we were already "married." But after much discussion about our first year of marriage, we believe it's fair to say some things have changed. ...