FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

I wish I could tell you that I photographed every outfit and found the perfect background for each OOTD while on this lifelong dream trip BUT phones broke, I was fighting a cold, carrying a heavy camera and trying to soak in all of my "go to happy memories" for later-later (ready my previous post ;) Allora, it was just nearly IMPOSSIBLE and dare I say, just not a BFD... That's not to say that I didn't get some great pics ;-) some of which you can check out on my IG and my IG highlights. Traveling to Italy was a lifelong dream trip come true and when Vinh first told me we would be going, the second thought, after thinking holy shit bells, was, I can go shopping for spring early! Well, I shopped til I dropped and then, because I'm so smart, I checked weather afterward; my heart sank when the forecast said 30-40° and showers! Yall know I love the rain but I had to rethink all of my outfits and all of my packing efforts! We bought backpacks with enough spa...

Gun to head... Dots or solids? DOTS! Duh! I am obsessed with dots... When I'm shopping, I have to stop myself about 85% of the time from buying more polk-a-dots. A closet dreams I have on the daily... A closet arranged by color (current status-ish) and having a rainbow set of polk-a-dots blouses... Awgh... And in honor of the Rock the Dots QUEEN, Minnie Mouse, I am rocking my dots with my new favorite pantalones! I've been in love with the look of these pants all my life- I've loved them on every fashion magazine, on every fashion model, and on every stick-figured mannequin. And every time I would built up the nerve to try them on, I would be super-let-down when they didn't look the same way on me. Thus I've grown extremely resentful for the kinda mind-fucking that happens to my brain through advertising. But in the last 5 years since finally joining the social media realm... And being introduced to IG... My perspective and the mind-fuckery o...

We took a few pics at night and had to use a different exposure - so apologies for the heavy-filtered look;-) Okay... So if you read my last blog-post - THANK YOU! And it was pretty heavy - and thank you to EVERYONE for reading and reaching out!  I appreciate and love everyone who get and understand me as the kinda friend I can be.   On a lighter note, I've been trying my best to organize areas of my life that I have failed to keep organized. My calendar...  My thoughts... My shoes... And--- My Closet!  I've been impulse shopping and filled my closet full of "resort outfits"--- hoping, praying and waiting for a vacation or some type of getaway! And in anticipation of a VERY BUSY FALL I have been emotionally shopping rather than emotionally eating. (I've been experiencing REALLY bad cramps from overeating... Some of you are familiar with the saying: "When you're full but you keep eating..." Well, lately I've been eating past th...

Photo from here I have been listening to a lot of music... Music is one of my favoritest and most powerful self-healing tools. Music and lyrics are open to interpretation and can always differ depending on your feelings, your experiences and your mood - Music can make you cry, dance, laugh, smile, hate, resent, remember...etc... And I am not saying anything new about music that hasn't been written before but it has been my only solace - that not even wine can reach ;-) In the past three weeks I have had two handful of panic attacks - sometimes accompanied with sleep-paralysis - the feeling of being awake but being unable to move. (Which is one of my irrational fears - not having control of my body - that - and going blind) Or I will wake up in panic attacks and sometimes a little bit of both - where in my moment of sleep paralysis - I could hear my own screams but my mouth is unable open, or children laughing or a burglar in the house - so I finally wake up but in a...