FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

Selfie at Cliff House Entry date: October 7th, 2015 I just turned 30 years-old a couple hours ago and I'm feeling all kinds of ways! But above all those feelings is love! The most important element of my birthday celebrations is to feel loved and I do-ooohh! So many feelings, so little time... but in reality I've had the last 10 years to come to terms with turning 3 0! I remember being 20 and praying for love, peace of mind, good health, a meaningful life and above all a small circle of friends and family that love me. I felt sooooh lost at 20 and I needed to be found, it has been a journey and it continues to be... but I have a partner that loves me unconditionally, I have made peace with so many of my deamons, and I have had a physical and I'm doing okay-ish... Update: 10/27/15: Minus growing kidney stones... Everyday, I work on making my life meaningful by loving and speaking honestly with loved ones and most importantly myself.  Though I...

I have been overwhelmed in the last few weeks with a lot of transitions going on in my life. And I have been procrastinating a lot in my personal life... But I have finally decided to cut a few people out of my mind and life-ish...by following the whole "out of sight- out of mind" mentality. I know what y'all are thinking??? But didn't I say that I didn't have that many friends to begin with... Well this is why... I can't have people that ain't keeping it one hun-ned! I thought I had made a friend... Who had aligned the same values in relationships- in a sea of singletons I always felt like the odd woman out by being in an relationship- Long story short- I would rather treasure and nurture genuine jewels that I have harvested over the years than to have a dozen of cubic zirconias surround me... Preach! And I say procrastinate because I've known for a while that I didn't wanna be friends with these individuals anymore but I ...

I have been pondering about this post since I read this Buzzfeed  The 6 Types of Friends Everyone Should Have (Check it out before and/or after reading this post; just make sure to come back ;-) As I read this Buzzfeed, I kept on asking myself "But why...what's the point" If my friendships are not genuine and they're not substantial, what's the point in a friendship? Which got me thinking, how many friends do you have and how many of them are legit friends, the "ride or die" friends and which are the friends that are just "along for the ride???" Interestingly enough, people around began to have this conversations without any bait from me. And people's responses ranged all over the spectrum AND what I summed up were two types of individuals; those that put up with the bull-shit friends and those that choose not to... Neither one is wrong and/or right... Two perspectives: First One: The one allergic to bullshit... These indi...

Baggage Claim - Pick up at Gate Misunderstood Welcome Back Readers! I had promised myself I'd be back every Saturday - but I thought I would wait this time around until after catching up with friends and family - for inspiration.... I am a bit of a night owl - so I will just go ahead and aim for once a week - let's  hope someone holds me accountable- how's that sound Fred? - Fred says "Sounds gooood" So here you go folks Post #2 Woohoo! And I am already struggling with writer's block and my bestest friend, procrastination... In my previous blog I talked about the shit load of baggage I have (which I will delve into like later-later) and I also mentioned my friends (one of which is my cousin  +irlanea Luna   [I love you and thank goodness you're an orchid]), The 3-5 people in my life that truly know me, but not necessarily all of me - (Because I compartmentalize a my life - it's just not all folks can handle all o' this) have brought s...