FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

Note: I started writing this blog in March while on our way Home to the Happiest Place on Earth ---days before resigning from my job of six years... I’ve always enjoyed my time sitting at a desk looking out a window… Which is probably why as I sit thousands of feet above the sky I am inspired to pull out my laptop (That I’ve packed to finish work emails – on my day off)  but  as I type those words- I’ve chosen to f*ck that sh*t – I am going to use my laptop to blog! I am a little  conflicted on where to start –  I’ve had these thoughts, these words, this blog on my mind for a long time… (Clears throat: it has been well over a year since my last blogpost) I haven’t written for fun in ages and I know myself well enough to know that I shouldn’t have taken such a long break from journaling/blogging (Friendly FYI – I maintain a handwritten journal in addition to my blog) But even before the summer 2019 I stopped all forms of journaling completely – I insta-s...

Image from: thefuckitdiet.com Mother's Day was awesome and I ate like a pig after a great day of walking... I am struggling... That ugly wave-length of sadness and anxiety are making their presence known... We are now almost mid-May and I can't seem to get this healthy-kick started... I am tired and I am struggling mentally and physically - I don't have the motivation and really do not care to have it either... Outside forces are making me feel like I need to look differently for the wedding dress... And I am beginning to feel real resentful of their projections because I am willingly making them my own... I am ok with being fat so I don't know why I'm letting other people's opinions of me, affect me... I have been doing a lot of self-hating and avoiding mirrors! And did I mention? I am struggling... I come home from work and would rather clean or watch tv or spend quality time with my loved ones. This past Saturday we went ...