FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

Watching "Downton Abbey" and I was inspired by something Mary said, "If you're going to complicate your life, do it for the right reasons." I have processed my trial and error in regards to  my time with my previous employer- at first I didn't allow myself to show any reaction- BUT I am human and I am allowed to react! The quote that has allowed me to process...I'm not sure how the quote goes... it goes along the lines of... "we cant choose what happens to us but we can choose how to react"- And I first decided to take full accountability for what happened - And I still do -  But responsibility = How do I fix it? How do I move on? - Thanks to what Mary said and this awesome blog http://tinybuddha.com/?s=unfairness I came up with the following... Like a chef on the TV show "Top Chef" said once, regardless of anything, you must make a dish that you stand by- and that's what I did... I wrote what I needed to write beca...

Well, well, well-  talk about 'putting your money where your mouth is...' 'practice what you preach...' 'talk the talk - and walk the walk' - so on and so forth... This past weekend I had to eat my words... But before that-  two previews... Vinh and I spent our Valentine's Day weekend in LA - more specifically Disneyland! And it was most definitely lots of fun (Just minus my EGH attitude; I am beginning to grow concerned about but this a positive post so I'll focus on those concerns at another time) We love going to Disneyland and thought a V-Day date night would be perfect! And then Preview #1 I got this bright idea that we could do our pictures for our Save-the-Dates at DL- so we'll see... Vinh and I had planned to visit the park on both  Saturday and Sunday  - Saturday went as planned we took our pics...Check out a sneak peek...of my color scheme and outfit...  at Instagram tab at top of page- And then on Sunday we were suppose to ...

One of my favorite days of the calendar is coming up! Single's Awareness Day! hehehe - I kid! But really! Valentine's Day is one of my favorite days of the year - It gives me an excuse to tell people I love them because I dont say it enough - And I know that there isn't an excuse for any of that - but as I am still learning to love myself and I will in return become more comfortable with telling those close to me that I love and appreciate them Last week someone told me I had good life... And this is why... And as a kid I always looked forward to receiving and giving Valentine's Day cards that I would make with my mom because we couldn't afford the ones from the store - And every time I look back at those days - I am reminded  that "I am rich-b***h", not in the monetary sense but in BLESSINGS, known as my family, specifically my parents- They have taught me so much and one of the greatest lessons has been to be true to myself - And for that I ...

Deja Vu..I feel like I wrote a post about this 2014 New Years...LOL In life, sometimes, don't you wish that things could just go back to the way they were... Mainly speaking of recess! When you would be out on the playground and get to call DO OVER! When something didn't go your way... Sooooo.... One of the many perks of being with my Babo... I get to celebrate New Years twice! And in other technicality successes, I get another go around, to the excitement I felt at the beginning of January! I looked over my New Year's To do List from my first 2014 Post - and I am proud to say that I have put into action at least three out of the six - And one of them (job) was kinda forced on me! Hehehe... And so happy to be working with the young girls I get to lead and mentor! Session building, deep circles, working with youth and with a PURPOSE (other than just collecting income)... Yes!!! The issue for January was that life kinda slapped me again, as I predicted - and I have ...

OK this will be short and sweet - at least I think it will be cause I'm having to write this post from my phone... I forgot to bring my laptop when I knew we were gonna be on grandparent duty- ayayayay (VinhS family... So sweet; take turns to spend the weekend with their grandparents, an Asian stereotype that I do not mind perpetuating) We are spending our Saturday evening already like an old couple  (not much difference from other evenings- wink-wink)  We are watching TV (Sharks game) And grandparent-sitting and babysitting-ish... Vinh's cousins are here as well and I love hanging out with them- They're too funny and love giving Vinh a hard time- and I join in for all the times he makes fun of me with nephews... They remind me of how long Vinh and I have been together- One of the youngest oh his cousins was eight years old and will be turning fifteen this month! Yikes! I have seen these boys grow up into such handsome, thoughtful, young men... Tear... Back to the busi...

In my last post I promised that I would inform y'all of "life slapping me once again" - And after a conversation with my little brother - I am ready-ish to talk about it... My brother affirmed that I have never been known to keep quiet - he reminded me of who I am! That I wear my heart on my sleeve and along with my heart are my values and ideals... So... Long story short, I am unemployed (I originally wrote "in-between jobs" to try and make it sound better) - With the support of my family and my Babo - I am coming out of this almost unscathed... I wanted to take the week to process my whole situation and... I am still processing it, which is why I won't go into details - One thing is for sure, I am working REALLY HARD on focusing on the positives - I am appreciative for the free time that unemployment grants me - In my first week off, my head is clearer, I have been able to spend real quality time with Patch, re-organized my closet, wrote out ...

FYI- some house keeping notes: I am having to write this blog via my phone...Ugh!!! Unreliable technology!!! (apologies now for any shorthanded stuff just extremely annoying having to do this over the phone) I know- I know- For a girl who claims to hate all things technology, I am definitely on this way too much than I claim to hate... And a toot-toot over 1,000 views- I would be lying if I didn't let y'all know how psyched I am to know that y'all are out there reading it, big or small audience, I'm just glad that I'm not totally alone with my thoughts... all the time... Before they're offended, I should clarify, my thoughts are not bad company- In my last post, I mentioned having a dark cloud looming over my head and I'm sure that it was a combination of many things- And just when I thought the cloud was gonna get darker, right before heading to our first scouting expedition, I read a post from @theblogess, (as if by divine intervention) Ok. ...