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Valentine's Day Love Letter to Myself & My Loved Ones


One of my favorite days of the calendar is coming up! Single's Awareness Day! hehehe - I kid!

But really! Valentine's Day is one of my favorite days of the year - It gives me an excuse to tell people I love them because I dont say it enough - And I know that there isn't an excuse for any of that - but as I am still learning to love myself and I will in return become more comfortable with telling those close to me that I love and appreciate them

Last week someone told me I had good life... And this is why...
And as a kid I always looked forward to receiving and giving Valentine's Day cards that I would make with my mom because we couldn't afford the ones from the store -

And every time I look back at those days - I am reminded  that "I am rich-b***h", not in the monetary sense but in BLESSINGS, known as my family, specifically my parents-

They have taught me so much and one of the greatest lessons has been to be true to myself - And for that I love them!  

And at the risk of sounding like an ego-maniac - I really do like being me - I enjoy my own company but latetly I have truly been annoying the shit outta myself... I have been moody, COMPLAINING non-stop (And thankfully to a very blunt and caring younger brother - I was told to snap out of it And so I did)

Then I thought about what a Blessing my younger brother is! I have always referred to my brother as my Lil' Peace of Heaven!  He is Woooooooosahhhh about everything! Having a sibling that is the complete opposite of you might seem like EGH... But I like that we are so different from one another - he's the calm, cool and collected one and I am a complete spaz- -

And in moments where I am annoying as helll - he tends to be the only one willing to call me out -And sometimes - I'm not gonna lie- he pisses me off but I more than often agree with him - And for that I love him! That booger!

Now, my son and his siblings, Patch, Nano and Lolita, who teach me unconditional love! Nothing in this world warms my heart with love and joy like coming home to Patch and even before I enter the door I can tell he's anticipating my arrival as he sits by the window - and when I come in - there he is wagging his tail - They don't care what I look like, what I can give them, they're simply happy to see me! And for that I love them!

Then there's my sister, +irlanea Luna what can I say... She is one of the hardest working people I know! This woman is the epitome of work hard=play hard! People usually say "You're like the sister I never had" But for me that doesn't exist - she is simply my sister - has been and always will be!And again we're opposites in the sense that she is also more level-minded and centered and somehow we fit-  And for that I love her!

And for the man that has agreed  to marry me because of  all my crazy sides not despite them! I already loved this day and love it more now that I have you as my partner for life! What can I say- I have spent a better part of the last 6 3/4 years of my life with you and I wouldn't change a thing... well maybe that one drive to San Francisco after eating that burrito- hehehe - A man who puts up with that smell for at least 10mins is a keeper! And for that I love him +Victor Ngo (Cant wait for Disneyland this weekend!)

I also have an awesome supportive- sometimes SUiPER dysfunctional - family and group of friends that I hold dear to my heart - we dont always see eye to eye - or even like each other that much wink-wink-  but if it wasn't for the family and friends that I grew up with I wouldn't be who I am today- Family and friends that push me to better myself and let me live vicariously through them - Like I'm going to Belize this Friday and I attended kick-boxing classes through them ;-) And for that I love them all!

I am also taking the opportunity this Friday to remind myself of the greatest love! You have to continue to tell yourself that you are worth of the greatest love - learning to love yourself - (As I wrote that - I was like that sounds familiar... Song by Whitney Houston - hehehe)

I'm not saying anything y'all don't already know but with V-Day coming up - I need to remind myself - That this day can take many meanings - 

I truly believe that you must love yourself and when you do-  You open the doors to let others in - And you have to maintain those doors open by continuing to toot your own horn because just as easily you open those doors - a gust of wind can just as easily close them-

In this metaphor, the strongest gust of wind, is always brought on by me - I am truly my worst critic (I think too many of us suffer from this) So for at least one day of the year - I remind myself that I am worth the life I am given every morning I wake up becauset i sometimes dread being able to wake up again-

Happy Early Valentine's Day - take this day as a reminder of how powerful love can be - especially when we share it with others and most importantly ourselves-

With Love,
 
Lilly

PS: I leave you with this song... didn't realize how much I liked it until I looked up the lyrics!
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