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I Am Too Tired to Care... Because I Care Too Much!



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Mother's Day was awesome and I ate like a pig after a great day of walking...

I am struggling... That ugly wave-length of sadness and anxiety are making their presence known...

We are now almost mid-May and I can't seem to get this healthy-kick started...

I am tired and I am struggling mentally and physically - I don't have the motivation and really do not care to have it either...

Outside forces are making me feel like I need to look differently for the wedding dress... And I am beginning to feel real resentful of their projections because I am willingly making them my own...

I am ok with being fat so I don't know why I'm letting other people's opinions of me, affect me... I have been doing a lot of self-hating and avoiding mirrors!

And did I mention? I am struggling... I come home from work and would rather clean or watch tv or spend quality time with my loved ones.

This past Saturday we went for a walk with our kids, Lita, Patch and Nano  And it felt great! It didn't feel like a chore - so I really need to find something like that...

Tonight we had Sushi for dinner, right down the street from where we live, and I am really proud of us because we opted to walk and that felt great as well!

I need to figure out a way to be able to do this everyday - just walking felt really good! But I am not meeting my 10,000steps a day goal and I am feeling like a failure!

So I am throwing myself a pity-party rather than actually coming up with solutions.

So welcome y'all to my pity-party of one!

That is all,

'Til Next Tuesday

Toodles
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