FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

Yeah, you read that right! Your eyes do not deceive you... Long Live the Mother Fuckin FUPA! May the Fat Upper Pussy Area reign forever! I am a fat woman with a fat body, that includes fat thighs, a fat stomach, a fat face, fat arms and a Fat. Upper. Pussy. Area. And my God, I am on the verge of turning 33 thus by my calculations, it has taken me well over 21 summers to FINALLY look forward to the summer. I am at my heaviest I've been in my adult life, 210lbs if you must know- AND I am finally wearing shorts without shame! And for the first time in sooooooooo many, many, many, many, many, many... Well you get the gist... It has been years since I looked forward to bathing suit season for the actual bathing suits. As we officially come to mark the end of summer I would like to share that loving myself is a continuous journey. There are days I wish I were as fat as the days when I thought I was "fat" - at 163lbs. And then there are days that I simply thank G...

         Photos hopped via Snapseed Soooooooo... It's been a minute. And I told y'all on Insta this post is deep-ish and deep-esque. I havent posted on the blog because I simply wasn't motivated or inspired to... And the summer wasn't more busy than usual BUT my mind was. I have figured out that my most mentally tormenting months are the Summer months. Summer 2018 was a bit better than years before - not entirely sure why- but I'm not complainin' If aything I thank GOD for granting me a little peace of mind of this Summer. Nonetheless I was still inspired to write this blog because a daunting number approaches... Dun-dun-dun! 33! In 44 days I will turn 33! And I am no closer to becoming pregnant. Up until turning 28, I always knew, or at least I thought I did, that I wanted to be a mom. Something, some kind of switch, post quarter-life crisis, flipped in me and the tick-tock of my biological clock stopped ticking. I'm not sure if it was the...

When I proposed that we explore new adventures at least once a month, I was really trying to convince my husband to attend a dinner, very pricey dinner with Outstanding in the Field. As is it turned out, it didn't take much convincing but when we looked up dates in January - they were all booked! :-( And because I am who I am - I felt defeated, I said "fuck this idea" and was over it. My hubby didn't want me to lose momentum and so he began implementing a trip to Italy ( a pretty big adventure to last us a lifetime ), AND on our flight back home, I kept on thinking about what struck this "monthly adventure" idea, so I checked the @out_inthefield insta account and decided to follow them in hopes they would add dates. Then as luck would have it! More! Dates! Were! Announced! And we had a gajillion choices all over the coast of California and we settled on Temecula Olive Oil Company. We booked our flights and our hotels, and a friendly mini travel t...

In our attempt to have a new adventure for every month of 2018- April's adventure proved to be this Disnerd's millionth and one reason to love the Disney Life even more! I've been asked for years! Don't you get bored? Isn't it the same shit each time? It's the same park from when we were kids... Blah, blah, blah Each time, I have to internalize MAJOR eyerolls! I love Disneyland parks! It could be the same shit and I would still have fun, but the thing about Disneyland, you can visit the park for a week straight and still not see and do everything, so each visit there's a chance to do experience something new. Now, before y'all accuse me of selling you Disneyland, I am just setting up our adventure for the month of April because how the eff can I say Disneyland is a part of our new adventure a month quest... WELL we've been visiting the park as a couple for 11 years and somehow we always find something new to do. .. But there's one p...

I wish I could tell you that I photographed every outfit and found the perfect background for each OOTD while on this lifelong dream trip BUT phones broke, I was fighting a cold, carrying a heavy camera and trying to soak in all of my "go to happy memories" for later-later (ready my previous post ;) Allora, it was just nearly IMPOSSIBLE and dare I say, just not a BFD... That's not to say that I didn't get some great pics ;-) some of which you can check out on my IG and my IG highlights. Traveling to Italy was a lifelong dream trip come true and when Vinh first told me we would be going, the second thought, after thinking holy shit bells, was, I can go shopping for spring early! Well, I shopped til I dropped and then, because I'm so smart, I checked weather afterward; my heart sank when the forecast said 30-40° and showers! Yall know I love the rain but I had to rethink all of my outfits and all of my packing efforts! We bought backpacks with enough spa...

I don't even know where to begin! Ummm, from the beginning, I guess... *Disclaimer: the trip was amazing! And as much I want to include my Fatshion OOTD for travel - this post is more about #FatGirlsCan - Fat girls can travel, fat girls girls can eat without counting calories, fat girls can be happy, THIS fat girl, with anxiety issues, can!!! Without further ado: Veni vidi vici We welcomed 2018 at home talking and talking and talking (and some dancing) about our dreams, our hopes, and our wishes for 2018. I told Vinh I wanted to get real for a milli-sec and this year would be the year of new adventures for us- every month I wanted us to try something new, and not just in the bedroom ;-0 - LMFAO - I couldn't help myself (My teenage sense of humor is another example as to why I'm not ready for kids). It would be as simple as a new restaurant, a new hobby, a new activity, now, I'm a strong believer that marriage in of itself is an adventure but that doesn't...