FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

I hope everyone had a restful Memorial Day weekend. Mine was jam packed with major accomplishments and lots of love! So much so, that I forgot today was Monday and that I needed to write my blog... And for consistency sake, I am writing to let y'all know to come back June 1st for a Wedding Update...   And that I am thinking about adding some kinda fat girl's guide to feeling and looking good, at least once a month... Every 1st,2nd or 3rd post... I want to try out this challenge I found on Instagram from the Aussie Perth Curvettes! Check 'em out I love theirr Instagram and their blogs! I'm not becoming a fashion/style blog by any stretch of the imagination... BUT I do enjoy looking good and feeling good about myself. And I haven't lately and that is a major part of my anxiety these days. I have been beating myself up and I want to make sure that at least once a month I highlight my many positive attributes! I am also in the middle of planning another trip...

I've lost count on how many times this has happened to me... Inspired by Belle and gary Busey... If you've read the "About Me" tab above, you know that I am a self-proclaimed weirdo! And proud of it! And in previous posts I've talked about the future hubby and his "Vinh-Isms" ...And as I was making note of another "Vinh-Ism" for an upcoming post... my Babo points out that he's gonna start making note of all the crazy sh*t that I say and do... As if me sharing that I have a tiny person in my head that speaks to my imaginary friend...isn't crazy enough... Well, I might be just a smidge crazier than that... And here's why... (For this portion, please imagine me sitting in a hospital bed like Haley Joel-Osment... and in a whisper here me say the following...) I talk to inanimate objects. Well, I tend to argue with them more than anything. And I'm saying this without a hint of irony. Here are just a few examples o...

Image from: thefuckitdiet.com Mother's Day was awesome and I ate like a pig after a great day of walking... I am struggling... That ugly wave-length of sadness and anxiety are making their presence known... We are now almost mid-May and I can't seem to get this healthy-kick started... I am tired and I am struggling mentally and physically - I don't have the motivation and really do not care to have it either... Outside forces are making me feel like I need to look differently for the wedding dress... And I am beginning to feel real resentful of their projections because I am willingly making them my own... I am ok with being fat so I don't know why I'm letting other people's opinions of me, affect me... I have been doing a lot of self-hating and avoiding mirrors! And did I mention? I am struggling... I come home from work and would rather clean or watch tv or spend quality time with my loved ones. This past Saturday we went ...

Not at all how I feel... but still hella funny... I am trying to go to sleep early tonight so I'm gonna keep it short and sweet... This past week my boo was recognized by an old family friend of mine - she had never met him in person but she still approached him and said hi because she recognized him from my Facebook... (Please note that I wasn't there when she said hi) Now... I am the kind of person that will walk in the other direction if I recognize someone I know... not because I'm stuck up but because I am and can be awkward as fuck... and I like to avoid the whole small talk scenario...  BUT I will comment and/or like something on your FB because it's from the safety of my computer and/or smart phone... Also, if you say hi, I am happy to oblige to social norms and exchange small talk... And I have written about this in the past: I don't have many friends that I hang out with but I do have more than enough friends on Facebook... But how many people ...

I would like to begin with a disclaimer: I am not a love or relationship expert by any stretch of the imagination. I have been thinking about writing this post for a while but have been debating because I do not want to come off as having all the answers...because I DON'T. A while back  +Victor Ngo and I talked about how we are going to raise our kids... And someone asked us, "You guys already talked about that?" And I thought to myself... umm yeah...!?! I have always been the kind of person that needs to talk EVERYTHING out! I need to have conversations to certify and solidify things... let's just say I am a therapists' dream come true (or worst nightmare...hmmm) On our first official date, Vinh talked about wanting 10 kids...! Anyways, as Vinh and I began dating - I wasn't ok with being called "Babe" until we actually talked about being exclusive because I didn't feel right having a pet name if I was still seeing other guys or vic...