FATshion Journal Blog by Lilly

Is money the key to success and wealth??? Please excuse the following, while I step onto my soap-box... Inspired by folks who need to pick up a book and travel the world outside of its resorts and LEARN the language of compassion, LEARN their stories, LEARN to listen... Before spewing intolerance and hate. Here it is... Anyone ever look back at high school economics and wished they had paid more attention? Sometimes I wish I had, for saving the world purposes... And one thing I can recall is what my senior class econ teacher said or asked, more like it, right before taking our last final as seniors... "Would you rather be rich or wealthy?" And I remember my classmates unequivocally saying "RICH... BITCH" And the teacher said open your books and didn't bring it up again... He looked at the class- almost as if he'd been let down - So the entire time while taking the final I couldn't get the question out of my head - And then, there it was ...

I have been pondering about this post since I read this Buzzfeed  The 6 Types of Friends Everyone Should Have (Check it out before and/or after reading this post; just make sure to come back ;-) As I read this Buzzfeed, I kept on asking myself "But why...what's the point" If my friendships are not genuine and they're not substantial, what's the point in a friendship? Which got me thinking, how many friends do you have and how many of them are legit friends, the "ride or die" friends and which are the friends that are just "along for the ride???" Interestingly enough, people around began to have this conversations without any bait from me. And people's responses ranged all over the spectrum AND what I summed up were two types of individuals; those that put up with the bull-shit friends and those that choose not to... Neither one is wrong and/or right... Two perspectives: First One: The one allergic to bullshit... These indi...

My Babo! My future Hubby, ain't he a cutie! Alright-alright-alright... Hehehe... It has been a little over two months since my last post about the "Sh-stuff" +Victor Ngo   says and  I got new material y'all! I love my Babo to another galaxy and back and there are  many reasons as to why... One of the many reasons are for his rawness! And the following is about as real as it gets with this man. He doesn't have a fake bone in his body and he keeps it real- one huneds! Did I say that right +irlanea Luna   ??? Well according to urbandictionary.com thas the correct spelling... Any whooooo... .As always I will provide you with a backstory because outta context they might not make sense... Without further ado.. Here we go... Backstory: At an early age I was obsessed with reading and watching the various biographies of serial killers- From the likings of Ted Bundy, Jeffrey Dahmer, Jack the Ripper, Charles Manson, so on and ...

Picture from Pinterest: How I like to write: Cole Ryan Though I take a lot of pride in my weirdness and especially now that I can celebrate my anxiety out in the open - I still have trouble talking about the ugly side of my anxiety issues - So here it goes: meet the uglier side of the tiny person inside my head that more than often wishes I didn't wake up... it's why I try to keep her so hidden... because to show  vulnerability is as real as it gets... Last night was a tough night! Yesterday was my first day at my new job! Yay! And it was a good day! My super sweet co-worker got me chocolate chip muffins! And the cutest plant! And I was ready to burst into toot-toot mode when I got home... Instead when I got home - I was greeted with hostility- And I was not expecting it at all... And that's when I became aware of how fragile my state of mind really is... And rather than give into it - I thought I would just separate myself from the situation but that proved to ...

Life: Knock Knock Me: Who's there? Life: Mean Spirited... Me: Mean Spirited, Who? Life:  Mean Spirited Insecure Jealous Bitch! And that Bitch that I am referring to, is Me... I have fallen off the wagon- the wagon of self-love! Our venue is officially booked and the next item on the list is our Save the Dates and I am also suppose to officially begin looking for dresses- The "Looking Fly in my size 8/10 jeans" girl I use to be is back inside my head and having an argument with present "Still looking fly in my size 14 jeans" woman. Size 8 /10 convinced size 14 to hold off on sending the Save the Dates... Take a wild guess as to why I haven't??? I feel ugly and I feel ugly because I am fat! Now - WAIT... I know that I have said I am more than ok with being fat and that I do love myself and honestly - I do find myself attractive! (Toot your own horn!) But my self-esteem, recently, is common sense!  (My common sense) I am quick to point out all of ...