Wooooooooooooosaaaaaaaaaaah...I give up... Vol 1 Issue 1

Update: 2/11/14: By the grace of God, I no longer work at this establishment:  I will miss my kids! And I am glad that I did meet a few cool peoples - who keep it real and understand why I had to write this post- To them and my kids I wish them all the best with all their  future endeavors

Ok - I need someone to hold me accountable! I need to have a specific date for this blog so that I am on the regular (a consistent blog schedule)... as opposed to being irregular like my menstrual cycle... ayayayay -

And since I am over-sharing I might as well let you know that I have also been hesitating writing this post... Why... Because this is not gonna me one of my more popular posts... But I gotta vent this out or end up killing my liver with the daily trips to happy hour (I know that my frame of mind is currently loomed over by those dark clouds you see in  depression commercials -)

This is what has me depressed - I don't know how to be fake... And I'm not necessarily going out of my way to be nice  - I'm just using all my will power not to hurt anyone...LMAO

I know that right now I am not in happy place (this is where you say to yourself  "When is Lilly ever in a happy place?") and that I shouldn't to take my frustration out on the world... but more specifically the people that I spent about 40% of my day with...

But I have decided, Oh! the hell with it...

I have commented in a previous post that these people are Dodo heads - and I should clarify - SOME are total Dodo-heads and others are only products of their environment and experiences -(Not meant to be a justification only an explanation - )

And by no means am I trying to say that I have got my shit figured out... I want to make it clear that I am first and foremost an advocate of our youth! I understood from the get - that I wasn't gonna be making a lot of money but the flipside is that I get to make a difference... Educating, nurturing, and youth development is my PASSION! I can't see myself not working with youth!

People that dedicate their lives to youth have to cut from a different cloth, contain different DNA... And I have been called an over-paid and glorified babysitter because people assume after-school programs are nothing more than day care centers with a different name...

And for the first time, in my 10 yrs of working with youth, professionally, I finally see it, these Dodo-heads have such a disregard for the impact that we can make in the youth that we work with....SERIOUSLY some of the shit that these people do and say - I am amazed that this iorganization is still above water...BUT NOT REALLY because I have also been privy to "insider" information where I wish I hadn't been informed because sometimes ignorance is bliss...But I digress -

So without further hesitation - LET THE BITCHIN' FEST COMMENCE here's some of the shit these Dodo-heads say and/or do...

Volume1 Issue 1 (Cause I expect more this shit in the near future)

Sounds like I'm not taking accountability...but I am, I promise
...I'm sure the feeling is mutual...

Backstory: In  non-profits and especially in the after-school realm, you need money to be able to keep the doors open and sometimes this money comes from programs that want us to launch their curriculum and we must collect data and report back on a regular basis- so a huge part of non-profits is data entry - So when we told the staff that we would be assigning due dates (Mainly because they hadn't entered anything in the last 2 months) this is what a Dodo-head says:

• "I don't get paid enough to have a due date" -Well genius if this doesn't get done, when it's suppose to,   there won't be any money to pay you...

Backstory: After receiving a huge donation of books.. yay!...right?...nope!... A Dodo-head says:

• "They keep on donating books - don't they know our kids don't read... shoot I don't even read for fun, not even in college - I just bat my eyelashes and get what I want" -Again- fine- you're entitled to your stupidity but Dodo-head says this in front of students and a parent...

Backstory: MLK day is coming up and I prepped a fieldtrip proposal for the Freedom Train - A San Jose "The Freedom Train is the symbolic remembrance and commemoration of the distance traveled on foot from Selma to Montgomery, Alabama by Dr. King and other civil rights marchers. The Freedom Train was started here in San Jose by the beloved Coretta Scott King and many of her volunteers.  For three decades the MLK Association has chartered a train that transports people from San Jose to San Francisco, California." http://scvmlk.org/about-the-freedom-train/  Here is what one Dodo-head said to another Dodo-head to say to me (That's how these Dodo-heads communicate)

How I have been feeling, everyday at work, since Jan 6 ;-(

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• "We are not to supervise kids when we are not scheduled to work so there won't be a fieldtrip for the MLK freedom train its not as if its beneficial to the community" - Y'all don't understand how hard it was for me not to cry in disgust that whole day - I had to go to the bathroom to kick a wall - Oh and soon after was told I had to work on Sunday when I wasn't scheduled to work...Ha!

Backstory: At a meeting with the major players and one of the head players says:

• "This should have been done - these things are not on paper just to be on paper like the other stuff" - Two things 1.Why does a room of GROWN adults need to be told to do something clearly witten on paper and 2. What other stuff should I not be taking seriously... Oh and immediately following this statement, Dodo-head says: 
• "If it says due in Jan and it's not done - no one's getting fired - we can move it to be done by June"

Backstory: At a meeting with all staff, where we were suppose to have Mandating Reporting training (A professional comes in and explains when we need to call Child Protective Services) one of the major players says:

• "Hopefully you brought pen and paper" - As if it's not already an expectation when attending a training you're getting paid for... but maybe they feel like they don't get paid enough... who knows

Backstory: I like to be informed with employee rules and policies... crazy right... so I read the handbook and when I told the Dodo-heads they said

All jokes aside the Serenity Prayer is what keeps me sane...

• "You actually read the employee handbook..." - And they all burst into laughter - you would swear I was doing stand-up and had killed it at the Apollo...

Backstory: At a staff training discussing new hiring process another of our major players says to all  Dodo-heads:

• "We are changing it[hiring process] because we no longer want to just hire warm bodies - we are looking for more skilled workers..." - speechless... 

Backstory: Last but not least... what the Cult Elitist... cough-cough... I mean, the major Dodo-head says:

• " I have problems with outsiders coming to work for us..." - Yeah cause the minute you hire someone who doesn't see why you're considered a Messiah...you should worry*...*Sarcasm...

PS: Not necessarily a quote but still worth mentioning... During a safe assessment review from the previous year - we didn't do so well and rather than discussing solutions - these Dodo-heads just enabled one another with justifications as to why they scored low...classic excuse...IT'S THE SURVEYS FAULT, THE QUESTIONS ASKED WERE SKEWED... hahahahaha... not really though cause I'm crying... I guess I'm the biggest Dodo-head of them all for staying... (HEAVY sigh) Hopefully by the next post this depression cloud is no longer looming above my head...

PPS: Martin Lawrence... you lied...woosah doesn't work...