Hello World!
Or in other words the few family members and/or friends that have added me on their Facebook or Google+...
I have been talking about starting this blog for over 10 months... yes I have a procrastinating issue - a major one (please see attached picture[after reading]: one of my favorite things to do; chipping off my nail polish and convincing myself that it needs to get done before I actually do what needs to get done)
Anyways, as I was saying, I want to further explain why I started this blog - well one of many... One of which, you can say, I have been on a soap-box most of my life (self appointed) - thinking that I have the answers to life as if I were some kinda modern day Socrates cause I read a couple handful of books about life, religion, faith, the road to happiness and blah blah blah blah blah (I wasn't sure how many blahs were appropriate so I had to say it out loud - try it out - I promise it needed 5 blahs)
So being "Ms. Knowing It All" for the majority of my life (I still am; It's work in progress; I promise) Imagine my surprise when life slapped me with a reality check... I didn't have shit figured out and I'm happy (happiness: overrated: I'll explain that in another post) to say that I still don't!
I had always promised myself that I would have a career and not a job - so yes, two years ago at this time I was in San Diego (shout out to the traitors: cough-cough Davis family +Jess Davis-Salazar and their honorary Davis member [+irlanea Luna ] which we are holding hostage til she's done with grad school, who holds me accountable to my words) So, where was I, oh yeah, enjoying a 3 day conference/retreat with the ocean as my view, I had what I thought was my dream career - working with Youth and making a difference in my community - woohoo yay me! toot-toot! I got comfortable and thought I was set... and then 6months later BOOM! I lose my dream career cause grant go bye-bye!
Needless to say I was beyond devastated! ('needless to say' and I still said it hmm I promise not intended to be an oxymoron) I questioned my WHOLE life - I already had a shit load of baggage before that and then that was just the fucking cherry on top...So I spent a whole year unemployed figuring out what the hell to do - I was blessed with other offers from other employers- but I was just too bitter and upset to go back into "Changing the World" (ugh! How self-righteous right..- But don't get it twisted love... I still believed in changing the world just not in my willingness to do so)
I went to a very dark-dark-dark place btw did I mention it was dark.Thankfully I had a great support system consisting of family and friends ( and just FYI when I say friends I'm really referring to 3-5ppl; I'll also explain that in another post) One of those friends, Deedee or Wendy, depends who you ask (shout out to ilovewendysworld.com) recommended a book while at one of our happy hour venting sessions - I cant remember the context of it but we were both cracking up,so much that I teared up from laughing so hard and I was so thankful because I hadn't laughed that intensely in a long time.
And then she told me about a book "Let's pretend this never happened" I bought it! I read it! I loved it! I then met the author , Jennifer Lawson, The Blogess, and she was fucking awesome, the woman is soooo funny and genuine! And I cried as if I were a Belieber... Meeting the Beebs... Since then I have been saying I would start this blog... Thank you my love for encouraging me to do this and being the catalyst to me finally entering the 21st Century(I finally got a smartphone)... so behold my blog... This is Me...Kinda... Ish... cause I'm bound to be slapped by life, a couple of more times... Here's a hopin'...
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| Procrastination at its best or worst...sidenote...I kinda like the bloody effect I unintentionally created; Happy Early Halloween! |
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